This morning, just before I woke up I had a dream. I have actually had this dream before if a couple of different forms, but always the same general theme. This dreams version was the version where I am back in high school and I don't know where I need to go for my next class. Usually in the dream, I wander around for a while until I spot familiar people in a classroom or I find my schedule and make it to class. This time, nothing about the school or the people was familiar. I felt completely lost and terrified. I went to the office to get my schedule and it was complete and utter gibberish. Rather than feeling confused, I felt terrified in the dream and actually woke up a little sweaty and shaken. The dream has stuck with me for most of the day and has had ripple effects on my mood.
So, feeling shaken today it has been difficult to look for the one thing to do. Besides feeling off, I didn't feel particularly motivated to do anything. I have done a few little things today that I guess that I could count as being my one thing to do, but in all honesty none of them really seemed to be something that would advance my life forward in someway. Finally, I had a bit of an epiphany about my efforts.
No, none of the little things that I did were particularly spectacular and probably wouldn't have a great impact on my life. However, the one thing that I did do is that I pushed through all that moodiness, doubt, and negativity of the day to still look for things to do to make my life better. It would have been so easy to say "Screw it!" and crawl back under the covers, but I didn't. So, I give myself an "A" for effort and congratulate myself for carrying on with my plan to do one thing despite the mental obstacles of the day. I am developing the practice of doing one thing a day and that is good enough for me.
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